Today I found out the official news, that I was accepted to be an apprentice in Granada, Spain.
Wow! When I heard the news, there were no words, just crazy hand gyrations and me doing something that was kind of like a dance and but more like a dying animal. Once the excitement was contained I was able to sit down and read more about all that needed to be done before I left in just two and a half short months. The excitement quickly was overshadowed by fear and doubt, words filled my head like, you can't possibly raise that much money in a month, health insurance? yeah right, and that whole getting your visa thing just forget about it. These words quickly spread from my head to my heart like a cancer infecting and destroying my hope quicker than I could react. I got frustrated, so I tried to do what I always try to do when I am frustrated...control any bit that I can. So I tried to take everything back into my hands, figuring out what it really would take to get to me there, and how I could possibly do it, and I came to the conclusion that it all was just impossible.
This conclusion actually wasn't a lie, it was true that I could not raise this money, get insurance, get a visa, and figure all of this out on my own, it was simply impossible. However, thankfully God spoke so softly to my heart like He does, revealing that although these things may be impossible for me, they are easy for Him. I was reminded that I am on this adventure with Him and for Him and that He will provide for ALL my needs in this, even the need I have for Him to be patient with me. Peace then flowed over me like a gentle washing rain, and although I don't know all the details of how all this is going to work out, I know that my Father does, and that is so reassuring. I am so thankful that I have a God that can do immeasurably more than we could ask or imagine according to His power that is at work within us. (Ephesians 3:20)
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